Brrr.

It is so cold.
My hands are freezing.
I've been wearing gloves all day, everyday.
My nose is always wet inside. Yuck.

I wish it were quiet in my house. I like the quiet.
I could never live with anyone. When I live alone, i'm going to stay alone.

YAY!

Less than a month until Christmas. What shall I get for you guys? I have no ideas. :(

Hoorah!

Christmas music is playing on one of my channels. Weeeeee!

awww.

squirrel sneezes are adorable.
:)

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alright. i've got to lose 15-20 pounds in 3 months. that's a realistic goal, right? because i'd hate it if you thought i was just setting my sights to high only to be disappointed. i'm on a 1000 calorie diet. and i'm starving. i dance a lot. i love to dance. i hate all other forms of exercise. i hate the burn in my abs after 10 sit-ups. i can't do more than 10. it's pathetic.

another thing: do stretch marks ever go away?

it's chilly out. my fingers are freezing. and the gnats in my house won't go away and it's driving me crazy. i threw some rotting bananas away because there were about 20 gnats circling them. it threw me into panic mode. i hate bugs. and i hate mice. we've killed 4 mice so far.

i want a smaller camera for italy. i just don't want to carry a bunch of crap with me. i want to take one bag with a few things in it so i can put it on my back and not have to worry about losing anything.

my mom and me have been going crazy buying christmas stuff. i can't wait.

Fall fall fall fall fall

Yay, it's fall.
I miss you guys. And I want you to know that if we don't talk again, you were really awesome. :)

I can't wait to go to Italy. I can't wait to lose 20-25 pounds so I can look hot in Italy. I'm going to look like i'm trying to care about fashion...even if my clothes are cheap. I'm also getting a perm in late November or December. Not an extreme perm. I want my hair to look like it did on graduation. Subtle.

I was thinking of writing some poetry. I don't know why.

I really need to take pictures. SO BAD. Maybe I could convince Rachel to go shooting with me. I need to talk to Fred. I haven't talked to him since graduation. Pathetic, right?

weeee,

I am oh-so-happy it's almost Fall. I love the cool breezes and being able to wear long pants and feel comfortable in doing so. I love the color of the leaves as they change from green to orange to red. I love the smell of sweet spices and apple pies. Yay. Now we can eat yummy winter foods and let the warmth of our stove fill the house instead of turning on the exhaust fan!

I have come to the conclusion. I like Winter more than Summer. In Winter, if you get too cold, you can go cuddle up in some blankies and drink cocoa. But in Summer...it's just hot. And I hate being hot and sweaty. Yuck.

keep on living in the past...

I can't grow up. What's holding me back? Why do I keep searching for songs from the past to make me smile? Why would I have so many regrets if I got rid of my disney soundtracks? What is this force keeping me from letting go? My mom isn't like this. Is there something wrong with me?
Why am I so crazy?

music.

i really love music.
i have been listening to classic rock lately...and some of the songs make me really happy. i wish i could jump into them and never come out. i want to feel like that forever. i'm starting to understand how rachel feels. :)

i listened to that cyndi lauper song that was in the goonies. i love that song. it makes me want to dance. it makes me smile. some people laugh at me for liking so many different types of music...but i've decided that i don't care anymore. i like princesses, i like pop-rock, soundtracks, classic rock...whatever makes me happy. at least i'm not boring.

my mom is snoring really loud right now... disrupting my songs. >:[

Sweaty, Stinky Summer.

Did I mention how much I hate summer? Well, I HATE SUMMER!!

I am not doing anything with my life right now. I have been going to bed late every night (early morning) and have been waking up so late. I hate this. But I'm just so bored. I need to take pictures.

I miss you crazy people. The only one of you I've been talking to is Rachel (boo). :)
I wish I could draw so my envelopes were pretty. It's too bad I was cursed with only one talent.

I'm just waiting for this year to be over so I can go to Europe in January. I got luggage. It was on sale at JC Penny's. I got a 5 piece set for $95. It's cool. The only issue I'm having with it is figuring out where the heck to put it. it barely fits in my closet.

I was thinking about getting a Vespa. I could save money on gas and save up to get a decent car.
I just hope it wouldn't get stolen, or I wouldn't get shot up. :(

Quick.

It's July 1st. Tomorrow is my mom's birthday. Another year has gone by. I can't believe how fast life is coming and going. It's nauseating. Where has my life gone? Why haven't I done anything. I really feel like I could have and should have accomplished more. I hate myself for wasting time.

Alright...that's enough feeling sorry for myself in this blog.

A few of my favorite things:
-The smell of freshly cut grass.
-The smell of a campfire on a chilly autumn night.
-That feeling that I get when I laugh uncontrollably.

I really miss you guys.

weee.

I ate cake yesterday! And opened presents! And...went to the Disney store and got a couple of princess plushes that were 40% of their clearance price!! Hooray for the little things in life. The little things make me the happiest.

Disgusting

My basement flooded during the storm last night. It was 11:45pm when the tornado sirens started to sound. Oh god, was that annoying. My dad got up and turned on the weather channel. He was bitching the whole time. And then the damn power went out. Water started coming into our basement. My dad, mom, and brother swept it up with the shopvac nonstop.
So I was awake until 4:00am.
And now my basement smells like dumpster water. And it's giving me a headache. Eh.

I miss you fella's.

My Friends are turds.

It's so easy to blog...so why aren't we blogging? Keeping each other updated on our boring lives?

Wowzers.

So next January, there is a winterim at the Graham School to go to Europe. And I am totally (almost 100% sure) going with them. How cool is that? France and Italy... I hate my fear of flying.

I have decided to be lazy this summer and not get a job...and I have also sacrificed getting a car so I can afford to go. My mom is going, too. How fun will that be? I just hope we won't have to help chaperone since we're technically not a part of the school anymore.

Jordan, Rachel and Harmony... I have presents for each of you. How do I get them to you?

New Blog.

woo hoo!