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alright. i've got to lose 15-20 pounds in 3 months. that's a realistic goal, right? because i'd hate it if you thought i was just setting my sights to high only to be disappointed. i'm on a 1000 calorie diet. and i'm starving. i dance a lot. i love to dance. i hate all other forms of exercise. i hate the burn in my abs after 10 sit-ups. i can't do more than 10. it's pathetic.

another thing: do stretch marks ever go away?

it's chilly out. my fingers are freezing. and the gnats in my house won't go away and it's driving me crazy. i threw some rotting bananas away because there were about 20 gnats circling them. it threw me into panic mode. i hate bugs. and i hate mice. we've killed 4 mice so far.

i want a smaller camera for italy. i just don't want to carry a bunch of crap with me. i want to take one bag with a few things in it so i can put it on my back and not have to worry about losing anything.

my mom and me have been going crazy buying christmas stuff. i can't wait.

Fall fall fall fall fall

Yay, it's fall.
I miss you guys. And I want you to know that if we don't talk again, you were really awesome. :)

I can't wait to go to Italy. I can't wait to lose 20-25 pounds so I can look hot in Italy. I'm going to look like i'm trying to care about fashion...even if my clothes are cheap. I'm also getting a perm in late November or December. Not an extreme perm. I want my hair to look like it did on graduation. Subtle.

I was thinking of writing some poetry. I don't know why.

I really need to take pictures. SO BAD. Maybe I could convince Rachel to go shooting with me. I need to talk to Fred. I haven't talked to him since graduation. Pathetic, right?